Discrimination

Around the corner from us is a relatively new sandwich shop / cafe place. I've been walking past it for ages, thinking 'I wouldn't mind going there one day'.

So finally we went there. Papa went in first and asked if it was okay if I could come inside also. The lady said 'Yes, I think so', so we all went in, ordered and started to eat.

The sandwich looked nice, and  we started tucking into it.

We'd only got a few bites in when the lady came over to us and said 'Actually dogs aren't allowed, can you please leave'.

Can you fucking believe that? I was so upset. It was fucking cold outside too, so we had to take the sandwich home.

I was too upset to enjoy the sandwich. I won't fucking go back.

This is a shitty thing about Germany, I am allowed so many places - but where I am NOT allowed is not clear. Some cafes and restaurants are fine, some are not. Not all places have a sign saying if I am allowed or not. Sort it out dickheads.

Silvester 2014

I fucking hate New Years Even in Berlin (or Silvester as the locals call it)

From 5pm December 31st until the next morning its just non-stop explosions and fireworks all over the city. Hate hate hate it.

Last year Papa took me for a walk on the Silvester evening to show me that I don't need to be afraid of anything - and a firework exploded under me. Not this year...I said 'Don't you fucking dare make me go outside today!' So they let me stay inside.

But I was so anxious. Pacing through the house and my heart beating uncontrollably fast. I had to have a chamomile tea.

The tea helped a bit, but not enough. I also had a 'thunder jacket' on, but that doesn't do shit.

It then didn't help that Mama and Papa fucked off for the rest of the night to go and party without me. I felt so vulnerable.

I spent the night by myself, scared shitless and unable to rest. It was horrible. 

They finally came home, in some wee morning hour. I was so happy to see them and hugged them with such relief.

The next day, Papa and I went for a walk to survey the damage to the city.

These Berliners are animals at this time of year. So much rubbish. Unbelievable.

I was still feeling nervous and there were still fireworks and bombs going off somewhere in our neighbourhood. It's so unsettling for me.

Uncharacteristically for me I really couldn't stand being out and about today and begged to go home. Hopefully these animals run out of their explosives soon and things can get back to normal.

I hate Silvester. I'm glad its over for another year.